Happy New Year

This is a post that warranted a mid-night blogging via phone. I have always thought when I was in my childhood and teens that I would always be good to others, never hurt or lie or be someone who takes others for granted. I thought it was way too easy to live such life and was determined so that I wouldn't have done anything bad to worry about or feel guilty about when I die. Because I simply knew one thing correctly that i was a great worrier. Hardly did I know that the world I was seeing at that time was not the real one nor people were not what they seemed. I have lived a life and I am trying to live such life where I don't think anything bad to others . But the world seems too dramatic and artificial each day and there's always a group of people to blame you and to take you for granted. I'm finding it too difficult to cope in my trying-to-be good aim. You help somebody like its your own problem and the next thing you come across is a criticism. I have no idea why God had to give such complexity of minds and thoughts to the extent that people can misuse them. What I am strongly learning is that whatever you do , however much of a good person you try to be to someone, it turns out to be a bitter experience. My mum used to say think good, be good, do good...everything in your life will be good. But people aren't like those in back days anymore. The Kali Yuga is sitting in their mind with rotten thoughts. I wonder where they get time to think about how they can act so complicated, very clever I must say. At this right moment, I'm worried and scared whether I am getting used to this real world as i grow older and meet different people at different places and coming across similar minds. I don't want to lose my hope of living a clean life ....trying but I don't know if I will ever find a way. I can't just let it be!

Lots of love
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HAPPY NEW YEAR 2013 to all :)