09 Feb 2012

This space has become a place I use to rant more than anything else these days. I do not expect people to read my posts but this is like a journal of my own that I write what's going in my mind > shouldn't be problem as long as it is not directed to anyone in particular I guess. So you read at your own risk and interest (I am saying in a good way:).

It has always been a case in my life that good things happen only unexpectedly and the expected things always turn out to be bad. And unexpected things happen only rarely. I still have doubts and confusions over how I have been making my decisions and directing myself towards achieving my goals.
I don't know if this happens to others but there are moments when I think my life couldn't get any better with what I have and moments when I think the other way around.
I thank God for meeting some nice people who have directly or indirectly kept me going but in another way, being overly nice kinda stops you from progressing in whatever you do. Depends on how you see it. But there is nothing compared to times like, when someone has coffee with you to help forget the hard morning you had at work or something. You get to know people better at that time and it does sometimes turn out to be a person who you have never thought would stand by you when you feel rubbish. Those few minutes of comfort feels better than people who praise you when you have done something wow. Thank God you show me people like that.

Friends - in the name of friends, some say only good things about you, whether or not you were good at something, they praise you for fake. That is not friendship. I am not having friendship problems here. Because I know who my true friends are and I know who are not so real. I have seen this in the western culture a lot that people act nice. I see it on a daily basis. Its fine to act nice rather than act horrible and hurt people., but as a third person seeing this happening to people when they are being talked behind their back after they have gone - is horrible. Well, may be its that you visualise things more clearly as you grow up....! See the reality of the horrible world where things are not so beautiful as they seem superficially. Don't trust what you see or hear. This is a fake world we live in. Apart from all that, I am glad to have a few friends who are honest. Anyway I am ending here, as time is always a pinch and limited.

........lots of love.

Happy Pongal

Wishing everyone a very happy and prosperous pongal!!!

Happy New Year 2012

After a very long time on blog. My first post of this year. Happy New Year 2012 to all of you out there!! A week has already gone past just like that, and this gives me a shiver when I think about how this year is going to fly by so quickly. And there are reasons why this year is going to be the most important and a nerve wracking one of all. Let's see what it holds for me in store, although the past week has not been impressive. I wish things were simply the same as how they were 100 years back because that era required purely human brain and a lot of hard work for everything. Whereas, nowadays it is a struggle between the amount of resource available to you and we don't even know where we stand. There are people who know a lot more than the others and it becomes a head tail matter in things like job interviews. This is because nobody knows how much someone deep diving in this ocean of knowledge open in front of you and I feel like I'm so lost in this. Without a direction.
Anyway, I hope this year turns out to be a best one for everyone. May there be more humanity and peace. Have a wonderful weekend everyone :)

I wish...as always...

The lyrics that's amazingly appropriate forever is "give me some sunshine give me some rain, give me another chance I wanna grow up once again...." Love it. Love it more right now. In this very second. Wish i could just rewind 5 years back...and I would make an awesome decision, which would (have made) make a lot...a lot of differences. I only wish as always. I wish wish and wish.

Happy Diwali

On the auspicious day of this Diwali, I wish you all success, happiness and prosperity!

May your home light up with the divine of Diwali! Happy Diwali to all!!

Life seems far more complicated than I imagined. If it gets too harsh already at this stage, I wonder what has the rest of it got in store for me......?!? I mark this day to come back later at some point in my life!

What do I need...

A Life that is as pure as the rain drops is what I aspire so desperately at the moment. Not just "my" life but lives of everyone surrounding me. The damn truth is that you can't be happy only by making your own life perfect and joyful in every way. You do want to see people around you be happy as much as or more than you do and that's the real happiness that can complete your life. May it be family, friends, anyone. I am trying my hardest, I think, maybe I should try even more harder to bring a happiness that is not just a matter of course of hours or days  but of many many years in those who are waiting and waiting for a true meaning of their lives. I can't be the meaning or the life, but I am desperate to be a part of the process in bringing happiness. There are several times when I asked God to give me the strength physically and mentally to tolerate things but now I really do wish that  the God gives me the ability to not just tolerate but also to make a change. I am desperate for a power. The urge and the ability to do something which is fruitful, if not power. I need it right now. Life isn't as straightforward as it seems on screen but with a lot of stones and thorns which constantly be there for you one after another. I want to pull out the thorns, throw away the stones in the blind path. Of not just mine but also others'. I want to see people happy. I want to see them smiling everyday.  I want to be able to tell them "I am here for you, to make the change you need in your life". Make them smile. I will then have a reason to smile. My happiness is the happiness of those around me.