From the garden

My mum planted these :)

Today is one of those days when I am overwhelmed with stuff. In my mind. I had to face situations today where I had to open up what was in my mind. At that time, I said what had come into my mind. There were no second thoughts. Sometimes being too good is bad. I have been a person, who cannot easily say no to the face, cannot easily ignore or walk off seeing someone suffering. But then there is this risk of being taken for granted and it will be too late when that happens. It has happened countless of times when I felt I should've rather gone the other way around not worrying about others feelings. Somethings and some people are not at all worth sacrificing anything for. However the problem lies on knowing the right people and the right things that are worthwhile until experiencing it. In this way, life will just go on experiencing every single thing. Today was one of the days I was pushed so much that I had to voice. I had to speak my mind. At this very moment, I hope I said what had to be said and not too much or too less. I hope it all turn out for the better. Before I say too much here I quit now.

Lots of love x

The way things are...

I am too wary about complaining too much about things. There are things that I keep quiet about, and then I am questioned why I didn't voice it at the right time. Contradictory to this, when I do complain, I am told "some things are just the way they are. It's difficult to change them" or something like "nothing much can be done about it". What am I supposed to do? Seriously. Sometimes I complain selectively.

Now I think its better to rant about it to people who don't give a damn about the problem but ready to listen. Get it all off the chest. Then move on. There is politics everywhere. Rules and regulations are in place to shut people's mouth. If a rule is breached and you voice about it, you'd be told to shut up in a nice way. In a polite way. This is how problems are dealt with in Britain. Sometimes you fall into the trap and shake your head like a fool and say Oh I see. That's what it is. Ok I take it on my shoulder and I move on.  There you are. Your concern has been addressed and dealt with. With no problems. This is how the system works.

I shall tell you one incident for example, my father used to be a t-mobile customer for more than 10 years who was persuaded to change to EE when he upgraded his contract. Now, he was charged a significant sum in his bill for spams from a fraud company and when we called EE to discuss, we were told that, We are sorry, this third party company is known for these extra charges, this has happened to many other customers. Nothing can be done but we can stop it in the future. How comes this never happened before but now? How a third party company that charges you for nothing got the mobile number? Why can you not block such companies from charging your customers like this although you were aware of it? EE was not even apologetic about it.
This has happened about a couple of months ago and this post is not alone about this.

So, if you want to complain about something to someone in a higher position than you, think twice whether you will win or not. More than winning, the whole point must be about bringing a change. If you don't think anything is going to change for the better, you might as well save yourself from getting a troublemaker name.

In TamilPages 2014 - Casipillai Designer Collection

Casipillai Designer Collection, UK
Make up artist Karthika Subaharan, UK
Soozana Pvan Photography

Here I am again. Working in the Emergency department has drained me physically and mentally so much that I now want to have sometime to get back to the feeling of normal life. Had a lot of emotional and learning experience working in A&E and this has taught me a lot about dealing with difficult people especially. There were days when I had a complete break down but at the end of each and the beginning of the next day, I realised that I was stronger.  There were incidents that left me with memories I will never forget. People I could never forget. People who were bad professional examples. People who were better examples. I feel like I have jumped over a rough hurdle and I am still trying to recover from it. So much of stress and emotions.
I don't know how much the public understands about the stress that every professional goes through to meet the 4 hour target in A&E to see patients within this target, but let me tell you, we work pretty hard for this. Eating on the go, drinking on the go...sometimes not being able to have a break for long hours. Still, the amount of times we apologise to an angry patient when they start shouting and making an issue over waiting or not getting priorities...
Now, I am almost back to my normal work times but procrastinating tasks because I don't feel like I am there yet. A holiday would do :). Hmmphhh,  it won't happen any soon. I better finish off a lot of things before even thinking about travelling. I love travelling that I am always planning holidays but then I realise that I don't have the time yet.

Anyways, I hope everyone is having a good weekend.

Lots of love
x

6 years into blogging

It has been 6 years into blogging. I have no idea what I have achieved from this, but I had a good read through my previous posts (not every single one of course), and I loved reading through a few. Didn't fancy the ranting ones that much. But thinking about the experience of blogging, I am realising how much my life has changed since then. The people around me, the place where I live (although the fact is that I am gypsying around because of my job) and the amount of responsibilities. Well, to be honest, although my lifestyle has changed due to the obvious phases of life, I realise I still love the things I used to do 6 years ago. 6 years is not too long but these 6 years consist the most happenings of my life.

I am glad that I am still able to sit here and blog. Having said that, I haven't visited those blogs which I used to follow a few years ago and not sure if those lovely bloggers are still blogging. Anyways, good night folks!

Lots of love
x

The Sun is here :D

The Sun seems to be finally out on a daily basis. Took this snap on my phone just before doing our garden this weekend.

I've had been part of a photo shoot for an upcoming make up artist in London last month. It happened in the middle of my busy rota, and I was glad I could make it. The MUA herself would not probably know how much effort I had to give into this to make this day free for her. I've always been interested in posing for photos and getting dressed up which fuelled me to do Karthika MUA photo shoot.  Now, I have to admit that this lady does good stuff.

This has been something that I've never imagined I would do. Never ever. With some people encouraging me and some discouraging me, I loved doing it. For me, when life gives you the opportunities, grab them as much as you can and don't miss them. I don't want to regret at the end of my life for missing the opportunities it had thrown at me. I have turned down offers since doing this because of my other commitments, but I've never felt bad for doing so. At that point of time, I knew what was more important for me. I loved having tasted another area, if not explored.

Apollo Banana Leaf Tooting

We had been to this restaurant today as a family to celebrate a birthday. We were the only Sri Lankan/asian family in the restaurant at that time. Food was good, but the way they treated was not so acceptable. We were only half way through the main course and the waitress lady who was serving us brought the bill to our table and left without saying a word. All of us were absolutely shocked as if she had done this purposely and wanted us to leave… We hadn't even asked for the bill. We had no idea how to react. We spent about 15 mins trying to get her attention to our table and when she eventually decided to come to us, we asked why she did that (hoping that she did it by mistake for a different table), but more shockingly, all she said was "oh it's okay if you wanted to eat more". Thats all. We were not even half way through eating.Totally an ignorant answer to our question and not even an apology. We stopped eating and left the restaurant straight away (of course we paid our bill)....and she didn't even try to ask or explain why that had happened. Not sure why the waitress lady was that rude but.... we are never going there again. The birthday was ruined.
This sort of attitude is not acceptable and if they are targeting customers other than asians for an ?!?"authentically" asian restaurant, I cannot help laugh.
Good luck Banana Leaf Tooting, thanks for your poor service.

Note - this post relates to incident happened almost 6 months ago. And I do not think this restaurant is now any different to what it was before.

Update - Tried once more to eat here with similar experience. Reported to the staff too. Not sure how serious they take these. 

2014

First post of this year. I haven't been blogging often/at all lately. Although millions of things are going on, the reasons for my lack of blogging are; one - I do not get time, two- My poor memory. Missing blogging. I wish I could blog more.
Things have been stable, I guess, for me. However, could be better. Life has been pretty busy this year from last August. I am glad I've finally had time to write this.
Wishing you all for a good productive week. :)

Lots of love.